2010 has been a year of heartache to say the lest. First, my sisters and I lost one. There were 4 girls in this lil family and on February 9th, 2010, one of the sisters received devasting news.
Ovarian cancer... Pause... ok thats possibly treatable, little hope still there... **breathe*** Also Lung Cancer... ***Gasp***Hope fading fast... ANNNNDDD..... The reason for your headaches... Brain Cancer... That day we lost all hope in a recovery ... And on April 14th , my dear sister , my best friend passed away. She never recovered from her headaches . It was the longest and toughest 2 months i have ever lived.
Shortly after my sister passed away , my son who is 19, decided that he didnt want to be with his girlfriend anymore. She was here at my house when he emailed her the breakup... OMG, it was devasting to me.. This girl is the sweetest most adorable lovable person i know. I cried the whole entire weekend!
On the up side of things, i got closer to knowing that i am almost 98% percent sure that my son's ex girlfriend's oldest child is my grandbaby. Yeap, im a nana! And im just loving it. Am disappointed b/c i havent seen him yet and circumstances will not allow him to know me but Im nanna just the same!!!
Daughter finally got her GED.. Yes Lord Am i happy about that!She walks for her Graduation in a couple of months.
I have had my ups and Down in my christian walk. Mostly because, my children are grown now, they arent the lest bit interested in church. My fiance rolls his eyes when i mention church . So when you hear the words, Home is where the heart is... or maybe it should be the Heart is where home is :(. Well my heart was the happiest when i had my family in church with me.. now its just a faded dream of days gone and never shall return.
I have no girl friends to have good christian conversations, good laughter or just for encouragement. Having girlfriends to go to coffee or lunch or girls day out with doesnt sit well with "some people" sooo i stay home aside from working.
Man what i would do for a good worship service.. A good woman's onvention.. A good woman's bible study.
The title is 2011. A year for Change.. I am making this year count for something. I am paying off things.. Making an extra effort to get with friends, spending more time with my sisters.
Will be trying for a place of my own, renting or owning, doesnt matter, where i can be free. I cacn be me.. Where im not critized, riduculed. Where i can be Drama free. Well as drama free as i can get.
Well i guess thats it for now..
To those that read this blog... Lets get the conversation going.
What is a good relaxing technique for you to "destress" yourself?
My De-stresser.. A bout 3 cups of Coffee, and slipping away to soak in a hot bath for an hour.
